"TRUST"

Try to analyze more in your thoughts. I suddenly find out one of the very important ability has gone. Keep friends. It's nothing for me to make friens, maybe it's too easy to make so that I may lose of contact in a very short time. This is a bad sign which led by lacking of trust toward them.
I don't deny that I like Jn very much, and till now. Actually, what I have been through these days taught me something. That day, if I insist there was only few minutes talks and refused to sit on the ground, I will avoid two disasters: one is helping Jn but gain nothing in the last; the other is taking the risk of betraying Isl. Sacarstically, the motivation of telling him was because of "TRUST." If I didn't tell him then, I could avoid this breaking among MUNers. Isl's secret would not let out. Also, I won't still like Jn so much like now.
Things cannot be undone. I get more important things to do now. Find a good intern, and find a nice job. Nothing to lose right now. I mean seriously.

I know it's hard and mean but I DECIDE to.
Give up friendship among 9th muners.
That's all.

Nothing to Lose. Be Yourself. Strengthen your competence. Fight them back in a better way.
Forgot this all.

Get things done. :)